Man... am I losing my drive to play?

So I didn't get to go snowboarding this weekend... it was icy and Ad didn't think it would be a good idea to have my first experience at night. Sigh. I did have a soccer game yesterday.. yes, with the "Turf Fairies" and we only had 5 players, we got spanked by the "Lady Chivas" who were very talented. I was a bit disappointed but all in all, I did have fun. I even played goalie and did rather well. It sums up to this, there are maybe 2 players that have any experience playing, we don't have a goalie and it sucks. Most of the other teams seem well organized and have been playing together.. it's suppose to be a recreation league but some of the teams are very competitive and our team.. well not so much. I even struggled with myself to go and play and that is so not me. I guess it's a place to start. I have to say,I am a bit intimidated with the whole indoor court, its like a glass box and I don't usually play using the wall as my teammate... I'm struggling with it.